My personal lament

I was talking to my friend about lamenting recently and he wisely said this – “Complaining assumes he owes us a full explanation right now. Complaining puts us in charge, makes us God. Lamenting lets him be God, and he is better at it than we are!”.

Complaining then says ‘God I want a different something from you’ – lamenting says ‘God I’m hurting’.

One of the many things I love about God’s Word is how practical it is. God’s Word, particularly the Psalms, has passages where we read examples of laments. Here’s an example: “O God, you have rejected us, broken our defenses; you have been angry; oh, restore us.” – Psalms‬ ‭60:1‬ ‭ESV‬‬

‘God you have rejected us’ – lamenting recognizes that God is in control. But the existence of lamenting also shows that a relationship exists. A relationship of trust. I trust that God is in control and I trust that He loves me enough to allow me to share my heart pain with Him.

So here goes……

God, I know in my head that I can trust you but I’ve never been in a situation like this where my circumstances are so uncertain. I know in my heart I can trust you but I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t like not knowing. I get anxious God. I start wondering about the future and I so quickly forget what you’ve done in my past.

God, I know you are in control, and I know all that happened is by your plan. But God this is hard. So very hard. God, did it really take a huge change like this to show me your plan for my life?

God it’s one thing to be in pain and to suffer. But it is altogether harder to see those around me, my family, suffering also. God they are in pain and that awareness just compounds my pain. What’s more, many others are also in pain about what has happened. I know you know all that’s happened and what heart motives are. I wish others stopped acting like they can see what you can see and know what you can know.

God I like quick fixes and easy answers. But this situation has neither. This situation calls me to have a long term viewpoint. That is hard God. That compounds the pain and suffering.

You are all powerful. You are all knowing and I choose to trust you but I trust you out of a grieving heavy heart. Please help my lamenting not turn to complaining or to bitterness. There are days when this burden feels too big for me. Please step in and help carry this burden God. God, please don’t let me waste one moment of this season and miss what you have for me. Thank you God that you love me enough to draw me closer to you.

 

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